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Don’t Study Composition (yet)

In the past couple of weeks, I have been asked twice about my opinion on studying composition as an undergraduate. First by friends of mine who have a son that is developing into a fine young musician and once on Reddit. Studying music is a tricky thing, and studying composition is even trickier. You are putting your development as a creator of music in the hands of a few people. This is a big decision, but I haven’t seen much useful advice about it online so I thought I would add my opinions as something to ruminate on if you or someone you know is orbiting this decision.

My Story

My story starts in high school in New York. I started out playing in the school jazz band as a bassist and started writing some tunes for the band. A couple of the music teachers at the school encouraged me to try writing more formally organised music for the school’s various ensembles; wind band, recorder consort and string ensemble. There wasn’t any formal instruction but the high school music teacher guided me and I studied harmony and counterpoint from books.

Over my four years at the school I learnt a huge amount. I was very fortunate indeed to be supported by the staff and even my fellow students who were willing to have a go at playing my music. It was exciting to hear my music realised. There was a wide variety of talent levels and experience in the school’s musical people from professional level players on the staff to young middle school recorder players. This placed all sorts of different constraints on me in writing for different people, which was incredibly valuable in making me think about how music conveys complexity. Much of what happened to me was simply good luck, the experience worked for me and I developed a naïve but enthusiastic approach to writing music.

In my last year of high school I put on an evening of music that I had composed. I put my head down to write and rehearse an hour and a half of music. Making something like that, at a young age, was very cool indeed. Marshalling all the people involved was perhaps harder than writing the music, both were valuable experiences. I developed a very strong sense of authorship, both of the music and of the evening as a whole.

Applying to Conservatory

While this was all playing out I decided to apply for a place on a conservatory composition programme. I assume one of my teachers suggested this as a possibility at some point. I am no longer sure of the genesis of the idea. I do remember feeling excited that this was even possible. Going to conservatory was intoxicating stuff. That was what really good musicians did. I had come to this game fairly late by traditional standards and had little formal training so that good adult musicians were encouraging me felt intoxicating.

Applying for composition programmes was my only option to go to conservatory. I definitely was not a good enough player. At this point my main instrument was bass guitar. I played piano but in a rudimentary way. The keyboard was a tool for getting music out of my head rather than an instrument I could perform well on. I had played double bass for a year and a half and trying to teach myself clarinet for about the same amount of time. There was no way I was getting in as a player, but looking at the composition entry standards for the conservatories in New York City where I was living, I had a shot.

I didn’t consider any other routes into music. I had made a decision to focus on writing music when I was 14, but I had no plan about where that might lead. Looking back the key question was, “How do I keep getting music performed?” That was the really exciting thing, but I became distracted by the shining city on the hill of music school.

I thought I had most of the things I needed to apply in place. I had scores, I could play some simple pieces on piano and I knew my theory pretty well. The scary part was the ear training exam. I knew I was weak in that. I got help from one of the music teachers at my school, but she focused on teaching me to sing. This was a good thing to know but didn’t really help when it came to the horrors of auditioning.

Applying for anything is scary. Conservatories were these fantastical places to me where the base raw material of young people were transformed into musical heroes. It felt like I was about to try to capture the Ceryneian Hind. I was lucky in that I had only applied to schools in the city I lived so at least I didn’t have to travel to suffer.

Auditioning at Conservatory

During the audition process it became clear I wasn’t the type of person who fit easily into the composer candidate box. The people who seemed to fit best were all very good players. They could have gained entry on their instrumental skills but were also interested in writing. At Julliard my shortcomings were painful. The graduate student who handled the non-pianist piano evaluations didn’t laugh at me, but the effort not to was palpable. The composition jury was perhaps worse. Milton Babbitt was fairly friendly. The rest of the panel was not happy with how shallow my knowledge of repertoire was and I suspect the lack of sophistication in my music. It was only looking back on this experience that the true horrors of it became clear to me. Thank goodness, I probably would have combusted with embarrassment with a bit more self-awareness.

Julliard was the worst of it. The other auditions were at least a bit better, apart from the dreaded ear training evaluations. When it all shook out I got in to one school Manhattan School of Music. It wasn’t a bad place. It had a decent sized composition faculty and they had accepted me. That acceptance outshone everything else like the noonday sun obscuring distant stars. This really could happen and at no point did I pause to think if it should.

Confronting The Possibility of Being in The Wrong Place

During my first week at Manhattan School of Music I was in Tower Records near Lincoln Centre with one of my new classmates browsing CDs, because that’s how long ago this was. We were both very excited about our new venture and our musical lives seemed full of possibility. We chanced upon Dr David Noon, one of the composition faculty (later to become head of the department) and music history professor, also browsing and struck up a conversation.

Dr Noon, ever the provocateur, told us that he didn’t think teaching composition to undergraduates was worthwhile. We just weren’t ready for it. My colleague and I were outraged at this and let our indignation be known. Dr Noon walked off having successfully started the fires of indignation in our young hearts and wishing us luck in our doomed endeavour. It was only some years later that I came to believe he was probably right.

Why Not to Study Composition as an Undergraduate

So why wouldn’t you start studying what you want to immediately? What possible advantage is there to waiting and what would you do instead? There are two main arguments against studying composition as an undergraduate. You’re unprepared musically and you are not ready artistically. I would expect most young composers to rail against this furiously, but I would stand by it for most people.

Being ready musically is a hard thing to define but most 18 year olds just haven’t had that much time to develop musical skills and knowledge of the genre. There are two kinds of musical skill that I think are relevant, the first is playing ability. Being able to play well is a huge advantage in how you can embed yourself in musical culture. The opportunities to have your music realised by good musicians are rare, even for established composers, if that is your only method of engaging in musical culture you are limited. If you can play to a reasonable level you can engage with other musicians through playing together. Conversely cutting yourself off from developing the skills that would make playing with others easier at a young age can hurt you.

Focus On Playing

Being able to play your own music, either solo pieces or as part of an ensemble, is a huge advantage too. From the classical and romantic eras many composers were virtuoso pianists. In the late 20th century Phillip Glass and Steve Reich both used their performance skills to found ensembles that allowed them to realise their music. Being able to participate in those ensembles was a big help. If nothing else it is one less person to have to round-up to play for you. You can also be part of playing other people’s music. One thing that becomes clear quite quickly as a classical composer is that performance opportunities are limited and well-rehearsed ones even more so. Becoming part of creating a musical culture you want to participate in is a powerful thing. That empowerment comes, in part, from your ability as a player.

Playing to a high level within the classical idiom also connects you to a large amount of repertoire. Knowledge of standard repertoire is a very useful thing in developing as a composer. The study of harmony and counterpoint in conservatories is often linked to chronological development of classical music. You start in the renaissance with species counterpoint and move through things like baroque figured bass, complex classical homophony, romantic extended harmonic techniques to early 20th century serialism. Familiarity with works from all those periods is a huge help. Not just familiarity in the sense of having heard them but a deeper familiarity that comes from having rehearsed and performed them. For instance, the different augmented 6th chords make sense much more easily to pianists who have played Beethoven or Schubert sonatas. They have examples in context in their ears and mind already.

Get Ready to Write

Artistic readiness is probably a bit more contentious. It is certainly harder to define. As an, at least partial, autodidact I think there is a lot of development you can achieve yourself by writing music and having it performed informally. I suspect that everyone has a quantity of less developed work in them that they need to get through. A great deal of artistic development comes through failure. You try things, sometimes like them for a while, sometimes not, and then come to appreciate their shortcomings. I think this process is crucial to the development of most people in any creative endeavour.

This is where you can begin to develop your compositional voice. This is something that never stops (I hope), but there is definitely a ramping up process. In 2013 Philip Hans Franses of the Erasmus School of Economics in the Netherlands looked at when a selection of painters produced their most successful work (in terms of financial value). The answer was 42. I am not advocating that you should wait until your 40s to study only that at 18 for almost everyone your journey is just beginning.

There are two reasons I believe giving yourself some time to develop a compositional voice is important. The first is that it makes it easier to choose the best possible composition teacher for you and the second is that you will be better able to fight your corner with them once you find them.

Selecting a Conservatory or University

I suspect that for many people selecting a composition teacher is a haphazard process. It was for me. I ended up at Manhattan School of Music and then picked the best available fit (and luckily they accepted me as a student). This worked out pretty well for me, but the amount of serendipity involved in such an important decision was uncomfortable. Your choice of teacher should probably take precedence over your choice of school. This is a very important relationship and taking as active a part in it as you can be useful.

Having a developed sense of what your compositional voice is will also help you get the most out of your time with your composition teacher. You are not a blank slate or a seed in the wind. You can take a more active role in your lessons directing them to areas that will be of the greatest benefit to you. Beginning to study composition this intensely at a younger age makes directing the development of your own voice more challenging. I suspect that very few 18 year olds have a strong sense of their compositional voice. This isn’t a disaster there are lots of good composition teachers who can help you develop your voice, but you will lack agency in the process.

What to Do Instead

What can you do instead of studying composition as an undergraduate? There are several useful paths. Perhaps the clearest is if you are a performing musician of sufficient ability, study your instrument at undergraduate level. This gives you a gentle entry into the world of conservatories, it gives you scope to develop your playing skills and it gives you access to many of the classes you would take as a composition student. These are things like ear training, conducting, orchestration and music history. These are things you will continue to study at masters’ level and beyond but having studied them at undergraduate level will help you when you move on to study composition.

There is one thing having the goal of studying composition at masters’ degree level changes for your choice of undergraduate conservatory. I would suggest you would be better off selecting a school that has a better reputation in the classes mentioned above than one that offers you a stronger teacher on your instrument. When I was applying Mannes School of Music had the best reputation for teaching musicianship in New York. These things fluctuate over time and there will be many good schools to select from.

If entering a music school isn’t an option or isn’t appealing to you there are several fields that will be complimentary to developing as a composer. Things that expose you to new ideas will be useful. That can mean different things to different people. It could mean English literature for some or mathematics for others (it didn’t hurt Boulez). One of the downsides of attending a conservatory is the intensity and specificity of focus on music can be limiting, gaining a broader understanding of the world and mixing with people who are interested in things beyond music can be very useful. A key tip is learning a second language can be a huge advantage in studying music. It gives you access to material written in that language, an understanding of vocal music written in it and even the opportunity to study in that country in addition to yours.

If you choose the less explicit route it will be important to keep working on your music both as a player and a writer. This can be a challenge but many universities have good music courses that may be available to you as electives. It may even be possible to do a joint degree. There is also the option of private lessons in theory and harmony. To keep up writing and most importantly hearing your work many universities have musical societies that will help you hear your music at least in a rehearsal situation. This is much more likely to work for you if you participate in these societies, but this is a good idea anyway.

Learn More About the Culture You Are Entering

Having some time between secondary education and formally studying composition also gives you time to listen more broadly. My knowledge of standard repertoire was not great at 18 but my knowledge of contemporary classical music was even more narrow. My knowledge of 20th century music was not so bad until 1950 or so, but after that things got patchy for me. This is an artefact of classical music’s resistance to new music. Many pieces, even ones generally recognised as good, get relatively few performances certainly compared to their counterparts that benefit from 100 or so more years of age. This is the immediate culture you are entering into. It is worth knowing as much as you can about it.

There are lots of nooks and crannies to investigate. Sometimes you will find things you love and that you find inspiring and sometimes what you find will repel you. Both are valuable experiences. Knowing what you don’t want is important too. This is an extension of the experience of making your own failures as a composer. The culture you are joining has made many failures for you and you can benefit from not needing to repeat them. Alternatively, there are people who have blazed trails you may wish to follow. The advantage of joining an established culture. There is much that has preceded you. There are many ways to participate and even many ways to be an outsider.

My experience of this was before the internet existed. I suspect that on the whole things will be easier now that databases and other research material are online and YouTube is such a vast repository of recorded music (even if the quality is poor). Even back in my non-networked days much could be achieved in a moderately well stocked listening library.

Keep Writing Music

The most important thing is to write music. Whether you are at a music school, university or outside of education, write music. Write music every day and make sure you can hear that music as often as possible. With modern music software this is much easier than it was when I was a teenager, but try to get people to play your music too. This helps you develop a whole other set of skills.

Every instrument has quirks to its sounds and techniques. For instance, woodwind instruments have a “break” in their ranges where they switch from sounding fundamental tones to first overtones, switching quickly back and forth between these registers is tricky for the player. You can read about this in a book but hearing it in practice is a much more solid lesson. There are also techniques that are part of a vernacular for individual instruments. A great way to learn these is to spend time with players and listen to them talk about how a part you have written could be more suited to their instrument. And every instrument has a variety of timbres it can make. There is no substitute for having a good player demonstrate some of these for you.

I would also urge you to try to write in the style of other composers, particularly the famous old dead ones. Trying to write a chorale in the style of JS Bach, an aria in the style of Handel or even a string exposition in the style of Mahler is a great way to get an understanding of the musical language of their time and an appreciation of their music. Try to experiment with particular harmonies or tricky modulations too such as from a major tonic to a submediant minor and back. Try some serial techniques and if you can gather sympathetic musicians try some stochastic music too.

This can be a time of great liberty for you to develop your skills in areas that interest you. Once you are enrolled in a formal programme there will be less space for you to follow your own whims. Take advantage and experiment boldly while you have this scope. Graduate degrees pass by quickly and necessitate a high degree of focus on the graduation requirements. This is a chance to play. Embrace it.

Figure Out the Best Place for You to Study

A further advantage of delaying your composition studies is that you have more time to research where you want to go and whom you want to study with. This is not as easy as it sounds. All conservatories and universities are trying to sell themselves to prospective students. This makes objective information hard to come by. Even student reviews (and articles like this) are subjective. They just offer an alternative view to the marketing material of the institution. The more data you can gather the better picture you will get.

In terms of the school there are a few things that can reveal a lot and are worth visiting in person to see,

  • Do the students look happy or at least inspired?
  • Do people seem to talk to each other particularly across instrument boundaries?
    • Do the pianists talk to the brass players?
    • Do the percussionists talk to the vocalists?
    • Etc
  • Are the practice rooms in good condition (pianos in tune etc.) and are there enough of them?
  • Looking at past performances by the main groups (orchestra, choir, etc.) are contemporary pieces well represented?
  • How many performance opportunities are there for student composers?
    • This could include studio ensembles that don’t perform publicly

Selecting A Teacher

To find a composition teacher learning about their music is important, but perhaps more important is what kinds of music do fairly recent students of theirs make. You should be able to find recordings of graduation concerts in the school library. Listen to these and you will learn a lot about the scope of styles various teachers can help foster and also the quality of the performances might give you some clue to how much rehearsal time these concerts are given. At schools that don’t value composers highly you might only have a couple of quick rehearsals for the culmination of your studies. Schools that value composers more will present composers graduation works in a better state. Keep in mind that work that requires complex techniques and/or performance methods will always be harder to pull off even for good performers with reasonable rehearsal time.

Different places can also favour different types of contemporary music. This can be influenced by the composition faculty, particular performance departments and even just tradition for the school. Looking at recent (past 10 years) graduates and performance programmes will help you discern this. If your music is not going to be a good fit there you may have to struggle for performance opportunities. Sometimes even if a teacher who works in a particular style is on faculty their music can be out of favour at the school.

Try to make contact with people you want to study with well in advance of applying to their school. Make enquiries about their availability and investigate how they might feel about taking you on as a student. People take sabbaticals or retire without any regard for your wishes and wants. This may not always be advised on a school website but if you can engage in a conversation with a decent teacher and let them know you are coming to their institution to study specifically with them most will let you know if this is not possible.

Cast A Wide Net

Be broad in your search. Conservatories might offer a flush of prestige but this has less value for a composer than it does for a performing musician. There are universities with very good music departments that may be a better fit for you. Some universities have large music programmes and some smaller. For some people a smaller programme can be beneficial and sometimes smaller institutions have better scholarships and bursaries available to attract good students.

Smaller institutions can be more proud of work being produced there resulting in greater performance opportunities. A powerhouse institution will have churned out many composers who will have gone on to achieve some notoriety. There you become one of the many and are in a sense competing with people who may have achieved a great deal. At a smaller school you are probably being compared to fewer notable alumni. If this is a decent school there can be a big overall advantage. Schools also develop institutional personalities over time. Finding a place where you fit the overall culture can make for a much happier experience. Some places foster collaboration or experimentation where others might keep to a more traditional and rigorous line. Both can work equally well for different people.

A note of caution. Many schools don’t value composers particularly highly. There is a harsh economic logic to this. Performers can be sent out to perform. It is common for particularly talented pianists or violinists to perform with professional orchestras or for particularly good chamber groups to play on professional programs. This builds publicity for the school and raises its profile greatly attracting both more students and endowments. Composers are less useful in this regard.

This is in part symptomatic of the regard contemporary classical music is held in and partly that while studying composers tend to be well short of their peak years. The results of this can be underfunding of the composition department and less financial support available to composers. This does tend to be mitigated the higher up the degree structure you go. It is better as a masters’ candidate and even better when studying for a DMA.

This Advice Is Subjective

As a caveat to all the above to show that almost all advice is heavily biased towards the person providing it here is my Leonard Bernstein story.

Bernstein was a guest a Tanglewood giving seminars and clinics in conducting before himself conducting a programme of his own music with the festival orchestra in the evening. The first piece of advice he gave to the young conductors was that the most important thing in conducting was restraint. They spent all day working on creating effective direction with the minimum of movement while still preserving clarity. Evidently Bernstein was very stern with his charges if they became in the least demonstrative on the podium.

Then it is time for his own concert and the maestro takes the stage to commence his full repertoire of leaping, gyrating and gurning to lead the orchestra. The student conductors were outraged that Bernstein couldn’t follow his own advice, but perhaps the advice that restraint was the primary issue was intended for himself? As advice is subjective it is always filtered through the experience of the advisor. The thought I have offered here are very much filtered through my experience even if they are slightly broadened by conversations with and observations of other composers over the years.

Learning to write music is hard. Learning to write in the classical tradition is very hard. There are, I believe, substantial advantages to waiting a while until formally starting this endeavour. Delaying the start of your studies gives you some important leeway in making some critical decisions about how you go about this. It may even be that studying classical music is not right for you. Music is an immense landscape and there are many ways to thrive within it. Take the time to find the path you want to tread and don’t follow one just because it is well travelled.

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Ruben Kenig

I used to play punk, then jazz. Somehow I went to music school to study composition. I wrote music and made sound design for theatre and studied film music. In the interstitial spaces of this I made websites as a content manager and project manager. I sometimes publish articles at

  • Arun Konanur

    It’s nice to read your thoughts on this subject after so many years have passed. We should discuss it over a beer. Let’s meet at The Marlin.

  • Well found Arun. A pitcher or two at The Marlin would be lovely. I wonder if it still exists.

  • Arun Konanur

    Sadly, no… it’s now part of the expanded Westside Market, and an apartment building — although the greasy pizza place next door still stands. We’ll have to go for a pint at your Local instead.